Irritation

I think Liz is settling into this pattern of contacting me about every two weeks. She did it again around 1:30 this morning.

1 grandpa froze to death, other burned to death, i got abused as a child, had abusive boyfriend...You few months after 2nd round w- mark

Are on major dating spree, within shortly after engaged. Bryan hurt me but i'm getting help! i feel sorry for you! i hope you get help!!!

I just feel sorry for you! now that i'm on meds & me again, i see how bitter, angry & insecure you truely are! you really need help!

These were messages sent from her phone to my email. Her text messages are always kinda incomprehensible to me so it took me awhile to figure out what exactly she meant. What she's referring to are all the guys I dated after dating Marc.

Yeah. Tons.

Let's see...I dated Eric last April, but that lasted barely a month. Then from June until late August I didn't date anyone. In the fall I went on two dates with a guy named Chris, three or four dates with my friend Dave, and three dates with a guy named Charlie. In late October I went on my first date with Mike, and from then on it was only him. When he proposed it had been almost a year since I'd broken up with Marc. Six guys in a year isn't really a "spree."

It's so frustrating. I've been sitting and wondering who she's telling about me. Her therapist? Her friends? Who is she telling about this poor misguided soul that used to be her friend? The more disturbing question is, who's helping her spin reality into this scenario she's created where she's the brave survivor and I'm the tramp? I know I shouldn't care, but...I do. It hurts. It distracts me at work. I mean, who wouldn't be hurt from hearing, "You need help!" over and over. And that I'm bitter, angry, and insecure. I guess that hits home because yesterday I was thinking about how desensitized I'd become working at the high school. And Lord knows I sometimes get angry about what my kids face. But that's not quite the same thing...is it?

And the thing about her two grandfathers...jeez. Not only is it irrelevent from the rest of the message, I think that both her grandfathers died either while she was very young or before she was born, or that she knew them only slightly. She's always been drawn to the drama of having two opposite, violent deaths in her family.

It's not quite restraining-order material yet, I think.

Damn.