Yeah, I'm lame

Lately I’ve been mopey because the wedding stuff is finally winding down and I have much less to do. It’s made me realize, once again, how unhappy I am here without any friends. I do know one person, Ashley, but she works an opposite schedule from me so I don’t get to see her too much.

Anyway, I did some reading up on the internet on how to make friends. It’s always the same advice, and none of it works for me.

Volunteer! Yeah, I do. I teach literacy to an adult student. So I know my student, but there aren’t many other opportunities to meet other people.

Hang out with your co-workers! I live in Milwaukee, but they all live in Illinois. And to make it worse, while I commute south to work, many of them commute north. That’s a long way to drive just to get drinks.

Keep in touch with your old friends! I do, but my closest friend lives about fifty minutes away. And since she just bought a house a few months ago, you know I’m not going to be able to lure her into the city. Everyone else lives farther.

Take a class! Join a club! This is a little touchy. Between the band and his job, Mike is usually gone a couple evenings or weekend days per week. I really want to be home when he is, and his schedule varies. So any class or seminar that meets on say, Tuesdays, will eventually conflict with nights that I could be spending with Mike. And I don’t have any hobbies (though not for lack of trying!) so there aren’t really any clubs I could join.

When I get home, I don’t want to do anything, let alone drag my shy self out to some place and force myself to talk to people. Between the commute and the terrible things that are happening at work this year I’m just so, so tired. But at the same time, on the nights when Mike is gone – and even during some of the days when he’s busy working on a project – I just get so lonely.

Man. I need to get a job here in Milwaukee.