My weekend so far
It's been a busy weekend already. Yesterday we drove out to Janesville for Ross' graduation party. It was pretty fun. At parties like this where we don't know any people Mike and I are usually pretty content to speak only to the hosts, people who speak to us first, and each other. We are bad minglers. The most extreme example of this was a wedding we attended in July where we only knew the bride and groom and spent most of our time by ourselves. It was actually really fun, but I occasionally wonder if it makes us bad guests or something. Anyway, it was good to see Ross and Meghan again.
After the party we went Christmas shopping. Mike still isn't done, although it's not his fault. He ordered his stuff online weeks ago, and recently got an email saying that not only was his item not in stock, it would never be in stock. So we raced around trying to find alternate gifts. We couldn't find anything in Janesville so we headed home.
On the way home we stopped at Target to grab some household stuff, and I realized that my birthday is coming up. I keep forgetting about it. I'm not too enthusiastic about it this year. It falls at a bad time of year with the holidays and school wrapping up before the break. The fact that my birthday usually gets lumped in with Christmas makes me stubborn when it comes to Mike and I celebrating it...I always want to celebrate it on the day, rather than the weekend before or after. Unfortuately this limits what we can do since my birthday falls on a Wednesday this year and I'm usually in bed by 9. I'm sure it'll be fun though...I'm very curious about what Mike got me. He assured me that it was nothing that I could get for myself, which makes me wonder what on earth it could be. Maybe he wrote a song for me.
Yesterday Mike commented a few times that I was stressed out, but I couldn't really figure out why since not much was happening that day. I think it's cumulative stress though. In the past two months I've gotten married, my sister has filed for divorce, my brother moved to Japan, two of my friends announced they were pregnant, and another friend announced that he's engaged. It's mostly positive changes, sure, but it still makes everything different. Changes usually stress me out...I've even started to get patches of eczema from all the stress (attractive, I know!). This winter I'm ready for everything to be stable for awhile.
Until I start hunting for a new job.
My skin's never going to go back to normal, is it?
posted by Danulai @ 6:38 AM
2 Comments:
changes suck. there's no other way of putting it. whether they're good or bad changes they suck. some of the changes you've mentioned are changes for other people and you don't need to take them on as your own, even your sister's change is hers. finding a way to let go of other people's stuff is a very liberating thing.
you and mike aren't bad guests. a bad guest is one who gets drunk and insists on meeting everyone, dancing with everyone and being thoroughly inappropriate. you and mike come to the event, don't disrupt the event and have fun with each other. that's a good thing.
You're not bad guests, it just happens sometimes, especailly at weddings. The odds that you'll know the mountains of random family that show up are slim, and if your friends are as close knit as some of mine are, you can end up the best man, knowing only 9 other people in a room of 400, including the betrothed. Without a date. ;-)
I know well the joy of a birthday near a holiday, as do some close to me. Stand firm. You are not a Christmas kid. You deserve your own day!
Change is uncomfortable, but inevitable I think. I thought a lot about your post on your sister's impending divorce, but couldn't come up with anything that didn't sound trite or condascending to write. I still can't, except to express that it's not actions in the status quo that defines us, but our reactions to the lack of it. You've got an amazing ability to pull through things. I think you'll end up just fine. :-)
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