Commence Babymaking

This weekend I bought prenatal vitamins.

I'm not pregnant. However, I'm hoping to get that way next month. After all, who wouldn't want another one of these?


I'm hoping to get pregnant in August or September so I can spend all summer with Little P and Hypothetical Baby. However, this also raises some questions. If I don't get pregnant within the next two months - and there's a good chance it might not happen, since P is still nursing some and my cycle isn't regular - should we keep trying? Or hold off another year until my body has settled down and we can have a better chance of conceiving in time to have a whole summer with both kids? But in another year I'll be another year older. If it's hard now, it might be harder later. But do I really want to take maternity leave my second year at a new job? Do I really want to plan my family around my job?

And what if I can't get pregnant at all? Mike has already vetoed ANY medical intervention, even minor things like taking Clomid. And he's not crazy about the idea of adoption either (which is weird, considering he was adopted). So I feel like if I don't get pregnant there's no backup plan.

Of course, lots of people would tell me not to worry. After all, I already conceived and delivered one baby. But secondary infertility has me concerned. Some people can't have a second baby after they have the first one. What if that's me? What if P's conception was a fluke?

So I'm feeling some pressure. Mike, on the other hand, has been looking forward to the month of August for almost half a year now. So he's in a pretty good mood.

We'll see how this goes. Hopefully it'll be easier than I think.