Danulai's Journal

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Life Update

Life has been pretty busy lately. I've started my new job, which I'm trying to relax about. Everything feels so disorganized and out of control. Plus, I'm at four different schools, so getting things up and running at four different places is nuts. I haven't made much actual progress but I'm getting to know the system which makes me feel a lot better. Also, I've gotten in touch with a few other speech therapists who were at my buildings last year and they've been generous with their advice and sympathy. I'm not a newbie grad who needs constant support, but that little bit of hand-holding has gone a long way in making me feel better.

I've also been dealing with an outbreak of eczema, probably due to the stress. Unfortunately I break out on my face, especially my eyes. I'm on a tapering dose of prednisone that I got from a walk-in clinic and tomorrow is my last dose, so I'm hoping that I can just manage until October 1st when my insurance kicks in and I can see a dermatologist.

One of the biggest changes to my life hasn't even involved me directly. A few weeks ago I found out my sister was pregnant. Mike didn't want me to write about it at the time and he was probably right - I was upset and might have said something I regret. But it's still a situation that concerns me. It's her boyfriend's baby, and they plan on moving in together and having him be a stay-at-home dad. This is because he can't work and draws SSI due to psychological issues. Not the usual reason one becomes a stay at home parent. I know other parents who have mental issues who are wonderful, but I don't know how much faith I have in him.

I spoke with her today and she's starting to learn about pregnancy and parenting. The first time I talked with her I was ready to tear my hair out because she thought the biggest decision she'd have to make would be how to decorate the nursery. Now she's starting to think about classes and what she'll need. She also got a large folder full of state aid brochures from her doctor. I'm happy that she's starting to apply for state insurance, housing benefits, and food assistance, but it's also a little sad. She's in the system now.

One thing that does bother me is that she still sometimes uses the baby as an attention-getting device. I think that most pregnant women see their belly as the center of the universe to some extent, but my sister uses it to sort of call attention to how different she is. For example, she's thinking of decorating the kid's nursery in a Halloween theme. Not harvest time, or fall, just plain ol' scary-monsters-and-ghosts Halloween. Her attitude was sort of like, oh, look at me, I don't even have a normal kid's nursery, even my baby's room has to be dark.

Sigh.

I see a lot of baby-auntie time in our future. I've already told my sister that Little P can't wait to have a cousin, and that we'll spend a lot of time letting the kids play together this summer. I hope that she and her boyfriend can pull it together to raise this kid, but I want to be around to help out if needed.

I'm looking forward to this weekend - Labor Day! Hopefully Mike, P and I can forget about our concerns and get some relaxing done.

1 Comments:

  • God Bless you for stepping up to help your sister. What we do for our siblings, eh?

    Here's hoping that they will shoulder the responsibility with just a bit of guidance from you.

    By Blogger GF, At 7:06 PM  

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